It took some time, but my ambition has started to die down. I grew bored with saving and it's so hard to tell myself no. I have no willpower against certain things, which I know is my brain trying to make excuses and justify what I want to do. I'm just struggling because rules are hard to follow and what's best for you isn't usually the eaisest path to take, but I still want to succeed and I still have faith that I will do the right thing. I just get these urges to abandon it all and they are so strong I temporarily lose my head!

The next two months are going to be expensive, but fun! I have a trip to SoBe with my best friend in two weeks. The hotel and airfare have already been paid for and I've been saving extra for spending money for the past two months. That's all I'll be taking, so I won't feel guilty about spending money that should be used for something. I've had to buy a couple new swimsuits which I debated over the purchase for awhile, but finally found a couple of adorable, discounted ones on Bluefly and Victoria's Secret. That provides me with more motivation to work out and since we go boating every weekend, I'll get good use out of the for the rest of the summer.

As soon as I get back I have to plan fiance's birthday and find a great gift for Mother's Day. I never scimp on fiance's birthday because he does so much for me, I have to give him something spectacular. For mom I was thinking about jewelry, but may be able to find a cheaper way to show my appreciation. She's easy to shop for.